Been A While

Wow, it's been a while. And  a lot has changed. For one; I'm pregnant!!! I am very excited but definitely lost focus on the list. I am looking forward to seeing how much I have accidentally been able to cross off!!

Day 129

Ok so here is the map wall.. I realize the one in the middle is crooked but I fixed it after this picture. There are maps of
Fort Drum, NY
Savannah, GA (Fort Stewart)
Trinity, NC
Rock Hill, SC
Sierra Vista, AZ (Fort Huachuca) and
Fort Lewis, WA
also more general maps of NC and SC.. All the places we've lived together plus where both of us are from.



The rest of these pictures are from Forks/La Push Beach where I went this weekend. I counted it as one of my west coast cities more than 2 hours away. It actually took us about 4 hours to get there. It was crazy beautiful and I can't wait to take Devon there! He'll love it! Haley and I certainly did, I can't even explain how pretty it was and how the sun looked setting on the Pacific Ocean. And we saw Seals! Baby seals were so amazing. It was a good day and definitely worth the trip! If anyone else comes to see me, we're definitely going there.

Day 128

I just took a ginger bath. I'm still waiting to see the results. I tried it the other night but the water was cold so today I had to try again. I couldn't stay in there very long because it made my heart beat really fast. I only lasted 10 minutes. But I can feel it on my skin so I think it will work nonetheless.

Haley and I went to Forks and La Push. I was very excited to be visiting a new city. Especially those cities and besides Twilight it was gorgeous. I am so glad we went there. I am thinking of getting a group of people together to go t Portland, that would be 2 cities. Haley and I are planning a train ride to Nebraska-ish. Its in the middle.

The day zero website says I've done 32% of my list and I have over 800 days left to do the rest! I think that's pretty good progress.

The doctor said I can get back to all my normal activities slowly. I can go back to running but I have to take it slow. I'm glad but now I have to get back in the routine of going to the gym.

But first I have to figure out how to get back in the routine of life. He's been gone almost 2 weeks now so hopefully that switch will kick in soon and I can find some kind of routine to be in. Any kind at all will work for me at this point.

Day 118

Today's the 3rd day since Devon left. Hopefully no tragedy will happen today. Yesterday my brand new car got busted into. I started to flip out at first but Shawn was here and I'm very glad he was. By the time I talked to Devon I was pretty calm so I'm proud of that. I guess that's all I really have to say for now..

Day 116

Devon left this morning, giving me more time for me to devote to my list lol. I can't believe how well I'm doing. These new pills are amazing. I'm slightly conflicted because I hate the idea of having to use drugs to alter my mood, but on the other hand, I feel so much more put together and calm and collected and most of all, not a big huge mess.

Moving on to list related items, I've completed quite a few recently. I got my website up and working. JenFramePhoto. I have my business cards printed with the correct information and all. I got my car. We ended up going with a 2010 brand new Xterra in night armor. I love it, although as much driving as I've been doing lately I wish it was a little better on gas. It's not horrible on gas, just could be better. We moved into the house. It's all coming together pretty nicely but we have big ideas that may not be feasible to actually accomplish. We'll see. Haley and I might be going to Forks and La Push which will be cool because, ya know the whole Twilight thing but also La Push is supposed to be incredibly beautiful and that's one city knocked out, also I have to go to San Diego in July and that's 2 cities down. Hawaii is planned for as soon as Devon gets back the end of summer so that's 1 more state and the honeymoon knocked out. Then Alaska is hopefully being planned for next summer. Hopefully I can fit Vegas into my San Diego trip then that's 3 states out. Oh, and I finished my 5 foods I've never tried before. And now that Devon's gone, I'll have a lot more time to work on projects and stuff. I bought my Starry Night puzzle so now I'll have time to get working on that.

I hope I can keep taking those pills in order to get stuff done rather than sit around and cry all the time. And hopefully this all will lead me into making some new friends.

Day 70

So Christmas is over now, and things are really going to start rolling. We are set to close on the house January 12th. We will be going to Portland about January 13th to pick up my new car! Black 2009 Nissan Xterra with only 20,000 miles! I've been looking forward to this for about 8 months. We will going on a trip to Seattle soon for our message, so that's something to look forward to. Devon will be leaving anywhere from January 1st to January 30th for Afghanistan, so that bomb is about to be dropped. I'm nervous about living in our new house without him, I hope it isn't as bad as I think it's going to be. But then my mom and sister are coming for a couple days,  and hopefully a trip to San Diego in February. March starts school, so thats something to keep me busy. I need to work on getting a new job though. Since I broke my foot, I haven't been back to work, but now Christmas is over and they wanted to keep me but since they don't know when I'll be able to walk again, I'm really no use to them until then. Plus our new house is in Yelm, which is not far from post, but about 45 minutes away from my job now. It certainly doesn't pay enough to drive all that way in this traffic every day, but there isn't much in Yelm. And the fact that I can't even walk into a place to try to get myself a new job is going to play a part. Devon says I need to get in the mind set that I won't always be fucked up, but I feel like I always will be. I am so tired of not being able to do anything, and then Devon's going to leave and I'll have to figure it out by myself and ask Shawn to help me, but that's just awkward. I'm afraid that our house is going to stay in boxes for months because I can't carry anything so unpacking is going to be hard and take forever. And I don't have time for that because I need to find a job and also I need to stay on the couch with my foot propped up and not do anything. January 7th is my next appointment, then I'll go back to going every week and hopefully it won't be too long. Although I have a feeling she's going to put me back in a cast. There is something wrong with my toes. They're swollen really bad and that's not anywhere near where the break is. I think it's just from being up and moving so much, so I'm trying to take it easy the next few days. Devon's such a good help about it, even though he hates every minute of doing chores or walking the dog or anything. I guess I really need to learn how to take care of myself again before he leaves and I'm left here to take care of everything.

day 54

I can't believe it's been so long without an update. I've been keeping up really good with my cooking and a few other random things.. I ordered some business cards today and I am super excited about it. The only thing I'm concerned about is going to the gym. I broke my foot (I fell down 2 steps and broke the cone shaped bone connected to my pinky toe and tore ligaments on both sides of my ankle), so no running for me. I will be having to go every day when it gets better to make up for all the time I've lost. I also can't take Zoey to the park since I can neither drive or walk her on crutches. I still need just a couple pictures to be caught up with all my goals marked off so far. Other than that, I really haven't made any major progress. I've been keeping up, but not getting real into it lately. There has just been so much going on. Devon got back, then Thanksgiving, then the broken foot and working tons in between. I did go on my first snowboarding adventure! It was really fun, but also very hard. I think I could really get into it. Except that now I can't go until January sometime (Stupid foot).