Day 70

So Christmas is over now, and things are really going to start rolling. We are set to close on the house January 12th. We will be going to Portland about January 13th to pick up my new car! Black 2009 Nissan Xterra with only 20,000 miles! I've been looking forward to this for about 8 months. We will going on a trip to Seattle soon for our message, so that's something to look forward to. Devon will be leaving anywhere from January 1st to January 30th for Afghanistan, so that bomb is about to be dropped. I'm nervous about living in our new house without him, I hope it isn't as bad as I think it's going to be. But then my mom and sister are coming for a couple days,  and hopefully a trip to San Diego in February. March starts school, so thats something to keep me busy. I need to work on getting a new job though. Since I broke my foot, I haven't been back to work, but now Christmas is over and they wanted to keep me but since they don't know when I'll be able to walk again, I'm really no use to them until then. Plus our new house is in Yelm, which is not far from post, but about 45 minutes away from my job now. It certainly doesn't pay enough to drive all that way in this traffic every day, but there isn't much in Yelm. And the fact that I can't even walk into a place to try to get myself a new job is going to play a part. Devon says I need to get in the mind set that I won't always be fucked up, but I feel like I always will be. I am so tired of not being able to do anything, and then Devon's going to leave and I'll have to figure it out by myself and ask Shawn to help me, but that's just awkward. I'm afraid that our house is going to stay in boxes for months because I can't carry anything so unpacking is going to be hard and take forever. And I don't have time for that because I need to find a job and also I need to stay on the couch with my foot propped up and not do anything. January 7th is my next appointment, then I'll go back to going every week and hopefully it won't be too long. Although I have a feeling she's going to put me back in a cast. There is something wrong with my toes. They're swollen really bad and that's not anywhere near where the break is. I think it's just from being up and moving so much, so I'm trying to take it easy the next few days. Devon's such a good help about it, even though he hates every minute of doing chores or walking the dog or anything. I guess I really need to learn how to take care of myself again before he leaves and I'm left here to take care of everything.